This is a description of Saul’s character that we have; he was miserable, possessed of an evil spirit, mentally unstable, suspicious, angry, and a very jealous man.
Have you ever known a person, whom you have seen their personalities change, right before your eyes? David did. David had no idea how afraid Saul was of him, either. So, the very person that showed so much anger towards David was afraid of him. We call that now a day as being insecure. It’s a lot more than that.
When we get to chapter 19, we see that David had to slip out of the king’s presence again, because Saul threw a spear at him (1 Samuel 19:9, 10). It seems as though it just keeps getting worse for David. If the Lord was with David, why do you think this keeps happening?
Relate what happens to David next, to your own life. That’s how we can figure out what is happening. David had been leading Saul’s army and winning battles, but after this incident, David flees and never again will serve in Saul’s army – lost position. David fled to his house, which brings us to 1 Samuel 19:11, 12.
Saul also sent messengers to David’s house to watch him and to kill him in the morning. In addition, Michal, David’s wife, told him saying, “If you do not save your life tonight, tomorrow you will be killed.” (Verse 12) So Michal let David down through a window. And he went and fled and escaped.
Now when Saul shows up at David’s house Michal tells Saul, “He is sick.” When the messengers run to the bedroom to look, they see they have been deceived. Saul then asks Michal why she deceived him and let David escape. Again, Michal lies to save her own skin and tells her father that David threatened to kill her if she didn’t let him escape. Not only did David become a fugitive, he was on the run, and had to leave his wife and home.
1 Samuel 19:18 – So David fled and escaped, and went to Samuel at Ramah, and told him all that Saul had done to him. And he and Samuel went and stayed at Naioth.
Soon, Saul learns that David is in Naioth, and goes there. David has to flee from there also, and leave Samuel behind. Now David has had to run all alone, again, so he runs and finds Jonathan.
1 Samuel 20:3 – Then David took an oath again and said, “Your father certainly knows that I have found favor in your eyes, and he has said, ‘Do not let Jonathan know this, lest he be grieved.’ But truly as the Lord lives and as your soul lives, there is but a step between me and death.”
After working out a signal with David, Jonathan will let him know if his life is truly in danger. Please read the rest of chapter 20. Can you imagine, knowing that God had chosen you for a higher position, and somehow things like this start happening that are out of your control. We would think we didn’t really hear anything from God. Doubt had to have slipped into David’s mind.
1 Samuel 21:10 – Then David arose that day from Saul, and went to Achish King of Gath.
Gath was where Goliath the Philistine was from. Whatever possessed him to walk into that place? People recognized him immediately as the one who had killed their champion.
1 Samuel 21:11 – And the servants of Achish said to him, “Is this not David the king of the land? Did they not sing of him to one another in dances saying, ‘Saul has slain his thousands, and David his ten thousands’?”
1 Samuel 21:12, 13 – Now David took these words to heart, and was very much afraid of Achish the king of Gath. (Verse 13) So he changed his behavior before them, feigned madness in their hands, scratched on the doors of the gate, and let his saliva fall down on his beard.
Achish tells his servants that he has enough madmen in his court. He wasn’t pleased they had brought him another (1 Samuel 21:14, 15).
David couldn’t even find comfort in the enemy’s camp. David knew what it felt like to have every crutch removed from his life; his position with King Saul; his wife; his wise counselor, gone; his best friend; and now his self-respect. David had leaned on others, as we do, and now they were all gone. David had done nothing wrong by having these relationships.
As children, we lean on our parents, teachers, and even education itself. As we become adults and hope for a future, we begin to rely on our professions, and our money for security. All these things can become crutches that will have an effect on our lives. What I mean by that is, we can’t fall apart and think life is over if any of these is taken away through no fault of our own.
Sometimes these things or people become our crutches. Isaiah 41:10 says, “Fear not for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, yes, I will help you, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.”
People always seem to be doing fine until they lose their job, spouse, and friends.
When the jobs gone, then the money dries up, and then friends and family start to disappear, we can feel useless. All the while, if a Christian, they are praying for God to help them. Things happen in life, bad things to good people. However, when all the things we have placed our hope and security in are gone, what do we do?
Within our human heart, we begin to replace that total dependence on “things,” focusing on the “thing.” The things become necessary to us. But, when the things are lost or stolen, how do we act? Sure, we sing songs like, “Just give me Jesus, He is all I need,” but is that really what we want, when we don’t see help coming?
This especially hurts when the very thing or person that we lose think that God blessed us with, will never be gone and then it is.
Here is the choice we have: We can look for another person or object to take its place or we can cry out for God to teach us to rely on Him alone. We probably shouldn’t wait to lose everything before leaning on God alone.
There is really nothing wrong with having things because God does want us to be prosperous, and things like jobs and a home is a necessity, just make sure Christ is first in our heart. We don’t have to fall apart when our surrounding world crumbles. The God of heaven will deliver us. David was learning a very painful lesson, through no fault of his own, but one that would give him much-needed strength in becoming king.